Today I’m thinking about October, cold weather, how to get over/get through tumultuous feelings and prayer.

October is such a wonderful month. It’s finally fall and finally cold enough to drink hot tea again (one of my favorite pastimes).

But lately I have also been thinking about my own unbelief. When I pray, I don’t follow it up with faith. I don’t consider the fact that God is listening to me and that He will take care of all my needs. I just think to myself, “Well, I’ve done my duty and God will do what He can. In the meantime, I will get right back to worrying because an actively worrying mind is the only way to combat all of the things that I need to accomplish, right?” This is how my mind works, folks.

In the meantime, I have been watching this with Sarah bear and reading this very slowly. I don’t read nearly as fast as I used to before college (which wasn’t that fast to begin with) but I have learned to be okay with that. Reading is a hobby that I love and I decided a while ago that I didn’t want to add pressure to an area of my life that I enjoy because I have enough stress as it is!